Happy New Year, and Happy New decade.
Wow where did that go? I hope everyone had a lovely festive break (hopefully without too much family drama etc) As always, Christmas and New Year went by in the blink of an eye. I always feel like they should move New Year to when the Winter changes to Spring as I find there’s nothing sadder than waking up on New Years day knowing that the weather is still going to be as bleak for the whole of January. We spent Christmas in Stoke at my mums then headed over to Sheffield, then spent New Year in a big house in Alfreton with Ollie’s family, it was sooo nice to have TEN ACTUAL DAYS OFF and away from Brighton and the shop, there’s been too many stressful things going on with that recently (that I can’t talk about for legal reasons) I’m hoping we get it sorted soon because the stress and the anxiety it’s caused us over the past few months of last year has been awful. When stressful situations like the one we’re currently going through happen, I do have the tendency to become a bit introverted and pull back away from everything and not want to do anything, so I’m trying not to let that happen this time and let it affect me in that way this year.
This year I’ve not made any resolutions because to be honest I don’t really believe in them, why wait til New Year you can make them anytime, but I have made a promise to push myself to create more content, focus on my blog and YouTube and put myself out there more. And to stop focusing on the numbers/comparing myself to others.
Looking back over last year, it was a pretty rocky one but with some great things too. I’m so proud of everything I’ve achieved personally , starting the year off by signing to Premier and took on loads of exiting new projects and campaigns, I feel like this is only the beginning with them and I’m so looking forward to what is in store this year. I took a step back from working in my shop as I quickly realised working in it wasn’t for me and it was making me really unhappy as it wasn’t creative enough. And with everything going on I didn’t want to give myself any more anxiety about it than I already have.
I still do all the vintage buying of course (something I have and always will LOVE) and I started to concentrate more on growing the Waiste website again as that had been really neglected, and it’s really started to work so thank you so much for anyone who has made a purchase and supported my brand in any way. It means the world. I’m still trying to figure out how to juggle everything and not feel overwhelmed and stressed by it all but we hired someone to take care of the listing and posting so that’s a big weight off my shoulders. As much as I want to I can’t do it all.
As bleak as January is, and as much as I’d rather be my pyjamas binging on whatever Netflix series I’m into (at the moment it’s Queen of the South-so far so GREAT) I know that procrastination is my worst enemy, so this year I’m stopping that and facing anything I know I’d rather put off and not deal with straight away. I’m a perfectionist and most of the time I feel like nothing I’m doing is good enough, so I’ve made a promise that this year I’m going to recognise all of my achievements and get that content out, flaws and all because no one is perfect and this is what I love to do, so I’m not going to listen to the voice in my head telling me I’m not good enough.
2020 is the year of self love and self belief.